Saturday, March 10, 2012

My self discovery through bad/failed relationships.

Instead of writing a album of my heart break I thought I would walk myself through it first.
After my previously failed relationship I thought it would be best to look at some important areas and apply some very heavy criticism!

I noticed that I went against everything I wanted in a mate and settled for the traits I didn't want.
So here I will make a list of what I was looking for from greatest to least and then I will note if this person displayed those traits.

Employed/Self employed or eagerly looking >  No
Spiritual                                                         > No 
Family Oriented                                             > Yes/ Sometimes
No former or current Drug abuse                  >  Yes
Intelligent                                                      > Sometimes
Compassionate                                             > Sometimes
Excellent Communicator                               > No
Respects women                                          > No
Humanitarian                                                 > Sometimes
Tall                                                                >  Yes
Attractive                                                       >  Yes

What's horrible is that I was given sign after sign that he wasn't a good match for me, but I chose to ignore those signs over his need of someone to nurture him. And their it was a silent agreement was made...I nurture you in return that you will become all of the things I want you to be!!!!!
He said all of the right things...touched me in the right ways and soon I was swepped in a whirlwind fantasy of  hoping I finally found the "one"

all poppy cock
Truth is I'm starting to smell a rat !!!

follow me through my thought process while I dig up some hurtful truth....and become my own therapist..
comment and questions welcome <3

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